access to her is harder
than reaching the city gates of Tibet
by way of trails
on a Himalayan mountain side
during
the winter snow storm

A disposition of tact placement of being
present though a bit tense, today is new
seldom smiling. origins of an icy core
the next next of kin, of whom I am compelled
to compete against, not with
I confide in a spirit of gentle reprimand

My gains built on steady, of this lineage side
through distance and indifference I wish not to face
for even in bloodlines, seniority reigns
of a position I accept, to accomplish my gains
for hard-sought joys and milestones in time
Ex Deus Machina: creation refined

the ability to see, an invitation to share
please pardon, as my own sight i will relinquish

(sight relinquish mode goes here)

clarity of non-sight:
her memory smites my impulse
serenity in bilateral time lock sequencing
we sit perched on safe landscapes
resting in-flight

the ability to touch, recollection of time
how her woven cloth brought pain and revived

(texture)

clarity of touch
i remember the distant winter
when i wrapped her love upon my neck
for the first time, sakura's fossil alive
i wept and lost conscious

the command came, to further construction
so that i did 4 years minus 2, plus 1 of revision

(soundwaves)

your presence is dear
is this what it feels like, sister?
i want to protect you, from this icy world
your note sits on my desk
healing me within

to cast this fickle self into a sea of devotion
and not look back
yet when i do,
i think of you
today
grey
sky
us
1
o
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